NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month)
I'm going to write a novel. In a month. 50,000 words is my goal. Roughly 1,600 words a day.
I'm a bit behind, because I started 5 days late, but that's okay. But I should be caught up by Days 10 or 11.
A huge coping mechanism from trauma parenting/life's issues for me (beyond Bones and trashy cable series-- Justified anyone? OMG is it gooooo----oooooddd!), is having little stories going on in my head. Alternative realities, if you will. I think them up when I walk the dog, when I'm vegging out in a waiting room, etc. I rather enjoy living vicariously through the people I create.
So, I'm taking one that I've had in my head for years running and I'm writing it down.
It won't be the "oh you've been through so much you should really write a book" book that people so often tell me to write.
Because, honestly, I don't know what I'd write about that just yet.
I don't doubt people when they tell me that. There has to be a story to be told somewhere in the midst of all that's going on. But the problem, for me, right now, is that I'm in the midst of it. I find myself living in a huge metamorphosis where everything I know-- my definitions of love, trust, family, parenthood, friendship-- is being challenged and restructured.
I trust that the book inside me, about all of that, will come later.
But, the caveat is that I have to start somewhere. And later, I will have to get in the habit of writing. But for now?
I just have to begin.
Writing is basically labor-intensive. Someone on the NaNoWriMo blog labelled it "blue collar work" and I am finding it to be quite true.
NaNoWriMo sends out little "pep talks" each morning in the inbox they give you.
I like that.
This morning, Gennifer Albin sent out the message (and wow! look at her blog! Now I very much want Hatfield and I to read her book.) Which basically boiled down to this: Go through the process. Write. To be a writer, you have to believe it and you have to get it written down.
So I did what she told me: I wrote on a sticky pad:
I will be a writer.
I will write books.Starting this very month.